My Words and Thoughts… Part 1; Feelings…

Have You ever felt like there’s a deep hole in Your heart that aches whenever you’re in deep thinking?
Have You ever had that feeling that You need an emergency rescue because You feel like Your heart’s sinking?
Have You ever felt like someone stabbed You in the heart just by using mere words???!!!
Words go a long way. They can give life a meaning sometimes and can also take away every essence, meaning and reason to live!
But amid all that pain, do You ever feel like there’s something that gives You a lil bit of hope and makes You feel like You’re in a happy and peaceful environment? Sometimes, it seems like it’s real but You’re actually dreaming?

I ain’t a sad person, but I ain’t also a very happy person.
I hate it when people complain when I express my anger through frowns. It’s my face ain’t it?! Even though’ I try in the best possible way to fake a smile when I’m angry and hurt by someone or something, the sadness just shows no matter how hard I try. But, in life, I’ve learnt to be mindful of what I’ve got to say and do to people who have hurt me ‘cuz my words and actions can either make someone’s day, lifetime or Mar it!

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Dreaming Big ( Big Dreams, Bigger Visions and Purposes!!! )

I can see the rain drizzle, yet the Sun’s still shining. I can feel the storm coming; Yeah! I can feel the wind blowing and breezing.

This place’s so hot! Should I welcome the stormy wind and keep my doors and windows open? Or could it be a sign of chaos and a bad omen?

I don’t know, ’cause life’s so crazy; it sometimes makes me feel really dizzy.

I know I’m on my own; but does that mean I’ll forever be alone?
I’m asking so many questions ’cause I’m so confused; what if I’m rejected or refused?

But as the chills breeze through me; I feel so relaxed and free.
Just feeling so free like I can touch the sky; I feel so alive. After years of living miserably in a bee hive, now freely; I can drive, or more like ‘dive’; into the big blue seas, with no thoughts on my mind, yeah! Hakuna Matata- No WORRIES!!!

I’m feeling so inspired; Yup! I’m so lifted; To be so great I Aspire; ‘Cause I know I’m gifted, though they thought I had expired; yeah! They thought my world had shifted, but I wasn’t feelin’ that, so I inquired; found out they’ all just hatin’ and short-sighted!!!

Good day People!!!

25/04/2015- The B-day Letter….

25/04/15.
Although today’s my Birthday,
It just seems like any other normal day,
I have a lot to say,
And also a lot more to pray,
And thank God I have lived to see this wonderful day.
Through out these years, I’ve had thoughts of me being lost in thoughts thinking that maybe my thoughts could have been different and worth thinking if memories of my dad weren’t just thoughts and imaginations but real memories.
Sometimes, I wish for my wishes to Come true, but most of the time, I wish for a million wishes just to wish that my greatest wish becomes animate.
I sometimes over-think my thinking and Cry over thoughts of me in tears and also dream about my dreams while praying they come to pass, or more like ‘come to stay’. I pray for my prayers to be answered and laugh because someday; I know that laughter’s gonna increase. I’m not perfect, but in his eyes, I’m a perfection.
I’m a special kinda twisted, I’m that hot ice they wish to have,that bitter candy that’s allergic to lies. Sometimes, when I see some stars on TV, I always wish that could be me, maybe someday I’ll beat that limit.
Oh! Wait a minute! Did I just say ‘maybe’ ? Uhmmn! Hello! I meant ‘DEFINITELY’, or more like ‘ABSOLUTELY’.
There’s many auditions going on, maybe I’ll call to get in the competition, maybe it’s gonna be the ultimate Audition that’s gonna bring an addition to my life’s meaning and a subtraction to my state of economic fluctuations.
I mean, this could PRACTICALLY BE MY BENEDICTION, or maybe it could just be another failed audition.
I’m a shy girl, I like to be alone, I’m scared of big stages, I like being on my own. I don’t really fancy duets, I’m more of a solo act, or more like a lone wolf.
I’m just trynna survive and get rid of life living in a frustrating hive.
My world’s filled with mysterious mysteries, sometimes it’s watery like it’s been raining, sometimes, it’s as barren and as dry as a Fig Tree.
I pray me dreams come to pass like a true Prophecy and I hope they stay forever, yeah; My Legacy!
I guess I gotta say Goodbye now, I hope you enjoyed my rhymes and I hope they’ve inspired you somehow, just wanted to let you know how I feel sometimes, or let me say most of the time, or maybe more like ‘All the time’. In Violent times, I make my thoughts speak louder that my actions, I guess I ain’t Verbal.
While Some seek verbal and poetic Justice, all I’ve got to offer is Lyrical justice and I pray that someday;the Just WILL be justified.
I know I already said ‘Goodbye’, but let me say it again, after all, What the heck! It’s my time, so if you’ hating on me; GO BREAK A Leg, No, on a serious note; PLEASE DO SO! Like I said before, ‘When there’s life, there’s hope’ keep hoping, because one day; You’re gonna get that ultimate gain. Bye for now, till we meet again,but for now and always; I remain VALERIE JO MENAKE A.K.A ayataya_menake or simply;
Lerie_menake.

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                         BUHBYE!!!